Saturday, September 24, 2011

Be Content...

I am struggling in the knowledge that my baby will never know his dad to be more than stories. His little life has taken a turn that no one would have ever expected.

This is completely out of my hands. And I don't know what to do with it. I'm called to trust. To know that God's timing is perfect. To trust that even when it doesn't seem fair, it's alright.

I want to bask in the truth! I want with everything in me to be content with our{my families} current circumstances, but I wrestle with myself because it doesn't feel okay! Ya know?! And I'm learning that sometimes, that is okay.

Faith is not a feeling. Faith is believing what I can not see.

Being content is not ignoring how you feel about something. It is knowing how you feel and being okay with it. Knowing that life is composed of seasons. Some good, some not so good - but in those seasons, we practice being content.

I will practice. I will fail. And I will pick myself up, brush myself off and try again.

Life is too short, man.